Still here, still pregnant. Reminding myself that tomorrow will really be 7 days past due, not 11. Why am I still not encouraged by that? We went shopping today for some groceries and checked out the post-Christmas deals at T.arget. Months ago, we had gotten our little guy several “baby’s first christmas” outfits in 0-3. I had washed them over a month ago and they are still hanging in the closet. We never imagined we wouldn’t have a baby by yesterday…..it was weird and also disappointing. I’m so bummed that I won’t be able to use those outfits. I’m sad he wasn’t here for us to celebrate with. I’m starting to think he’s not coming out without some help……MW will most likely give me the labor drink at Tuesday’s appointment to get things rolling if he’s not here by then. I have reached a new level of frustration….my belly is ultra itchy from being SO stretched out….I told Karli that soon my stretch marks will be giving birth to baby stretch marks. Ha! It looks like I was attacked by a cat…seriously. I wanted to be so happy yesterday, but I had to face the fact that I was actually kind of miserable inside….I was so uncomfortable, sitting or standing, and just felt pitiful. I was sad that all of Canada was having a white Christmas, and it was 65 degrees here in Richmond. I was disappointed that I didn’t hear from some family members. I was annoyed that my underwear KEPT rolling down….even the maternity ones. Basically, I was letting every little thing get to me just because I’m frustrated and so ready to have this baby. I’m trying to get out of the funk and focus on all I have to be thankful for – because it IS a lot! I’m so happy that K and I were able to spend the day together, and that we have each other and our health. That is a huge thing in and of itself! Our realtionship is great, and I’m more in love than ever. I’m happy I have this little man still growing inside my belly….and that the pregnancy has been smooth and complication-free. Pretty soon he’ll be here and all of this will seem like a distant memory, right? Yesterday, we carried on our Christmas tradition of eating at a local chinese restaurant and the food was amazing. There are lots of good things going on despite this frustrating waiting game….surely it can’t be that much longer.