So, I had been hearing lots of people say that pregnant women have very vivid dreams. Well, thus far in my pregnancy, nada. Things changed a few nights ago – for 3 nights in a row I had some very risque, even downright dirty sexual dreams. Usually I don’t remember much about the dreams I have….just bits and pieces. Well, I woke up in the morning remembering every detail. Sexy shower scenes and steamy hot sex sessions with my girl, something I would imagine would be in a lesbian porno…. They seemed very real while I was sleeping…..and the following days my mind kept drifting back to them….I was almost embarrassed, thinking that the folks who passed me could tell I was thinking dirty thoughts. It entertained me for a few days, and even after a real-life romp in bed with my woman, I was still having them. Guess this is the point in the pregnancy when my sex drive is going to peak, I don’t know! So far, I haven’t had a increase or decrease in desire…….but these dreams don’t help!!
While I’m telling you all about dreams, let me tell you about last night’s. First, know that everyone has been asking us whether we feel that it’s a boy or a girl. In my mind, I’ve always referred to the baby as she. I just feel like it’s a girl, but what are my feelings, really? I could be totally wrong. Anyway, K would like a boy, preferably….not that it really matters to her, but deep down – that’s what she’d prefer. So, in my dream last night, I didn’t deliver our baby at home or in the hospital. Oh no. The Wee One got delivered to us via a delivery truck, similar to one like S.chwan’s Fine Foods. Something along those lines. Very odd. I don’t know how the baby got out of me, and into a delivery truck, but of course you don’t question the crazy things in dreams, they just seem to make sense somehow. So, a lady arrives and comes to our door to tell us we have a new baby! K runs out first and looks at our newborn, and I follow a minute or so later. Upon getting to the truck, I see an itty bitty baby, maybe 6 lbs. She is dressed in a frilly pink outfit with polkadots all over it. She has a full head of dark brown hair – just like K’s. Her face is all smooshy, and I think she looks a little bit like a monkey, but I don’t say so. She also has 2 tiny cuts to the left of her right eye, that I just assume were from her nails cutting her face. I ask K, “is it a girl?” (Obviously the pink clothes weren’t enough for me….) and K says very non-chalantly, “No, it’s a boy.” Very matter-of-fact. And then I woke up. I don’t know what it really means, if anything at all. But I found it rather odd. Why was the baby delivered by a truck? Why did K say it was a boy, when it was clearly a girl??? Do I think K will be disappointed if we have a girl?? I’m not going to analyze it, but it was a pretty funny dream. I told her this morning and she just laughed. Last night I remember rubbing my belly and saying something about “her”….referring to the wee one. K corrected me saying “he”, in a joking way. Maybe it stayed in my subconscious.
Last night, K and I went to a new support group. Started by a lesbian who had an un-medicated VBAC (Vaginal Birth After Cesarean) a year ago, this was just a general support group for pregnant women in Richmond. A good majority of the women had the desire to have a non-medicated birth, some at home, some in the hospital. I feel like I’m a sponge right now – I just want to get all the information and support I can during this time. I guess I feel like it will better prepare me for our birth. There were 17 women, with one husband there too. Most of the women were pregnant, but there were three ladies there that had newborns with them. The babies were so tiny and cute; I had several “holy crap” moments where it hit me again that we were going to have one of those in December! We heard several 2 unmedicated stories (one of which was a car birth!) and one medicated-with-complications story. It was nice to hear both sides and get to ask questions afterwards. The birthing community is very close-knit and everyone I’ve spoken with has been so warm and open to sharing their experience. It’s a very safe, welcoming environment. The gathering of women is so awesome, and I come away from each one of these meetings feeling more excited and empowered about our birth. We have another Homebirth Circle meeting next week and I’m really looking forward to that. BirthMatters Virginia is also presenting a film festival on July 23rd that K and I are looking forward to attending. They are showing “The Business of Being Born”, “My Body, My Baby, My Birth” and “Special Women: How a Labor Assistant Makes Birth Safer, More Satisfying & Less Costly”. This is what the “invite” said (I can’t wait to see these films – TBOBB for a 2nd time):
“If you or someone you know is considering having a baby, these are movies to be seen! We all desire a healthy mother and a healthy baby and we strive to make informed decisions to ensure a positive outcome to the best of our abilities. We need to know what options are available and the pros and cons of those choices before truly informed decisions can be made. Pregnancy and birth affects all of us; therefore, this is not a “women only” event. We strongly encourage men to attend. There is a transformative power of pregnancy, labor, birth and being a parent. Please come and join in the dialogue ~ the conversation is just beginning.”
The long weekend seemed to fly by. I don’t even remember what all went on!! Oh, one fun thing we did was go to Williamsburg to do some shopping at the outlets. Every store seemed to have huge “BLOWOUT” sale signs up, but when we got in the store, not so many sales. When I think of CLEARANCE, I think of something being 50% to 70% off……not something marked down 2 dollars. Maybe it’s just me, but people didn’t seem to be buying that much stuff. We had a nice dinner and K did buy me a bunch of stuff at the maternity store up there. I got two very comfy tees (green & black) a white top, a black & white dressy shirt and a black dress. It felt good to get stuff that was comfortable and cute. I’ll post some pictures soon.
Today is 17 weeks. 10 days till we find out the sex!! (Yes, we’re totally counting down). July 18 will be a good day – the new Batman flick comes out AND we find out the sex. What could be better? Here’s what’s going on with Wee One now:
“Don’t be too shocked but… your baby is EVEN bigger than it was last week, not to mention getting cuter, and smarter every day! As you’ve come to expect, there’s no shortage of growth and development this week: your fantastic little bean stalk has added yet another half inch to their overall height– making them nearly half a foot long! Their little limbs have reached (or are within one week of) their relative proportions, and will continue to grow evenly with the rest of the body after this week. Reactive listening has begun for your baby, even though their ears are not yet structurally complete or fully functional. Meanwhile, different parts of their astonishingly complex brain are developing to process your little one’s hearing and other senses, (you know, sight, smell, taste and touch). Mind boggling factoid of the week: if you’re having going to have a little girl, her ovaries have already produced millions of primordial egg cells, which, within a few weeks, will develop into actual eggs! Phew… just wait till she’s a teenager eh?”
As we’re getting further and further along in the pregnancy and thinking more and more about our home birth, we’re trying to sell our condo and move into a more appropriate place, with more room. We’ve looked at lots of houses……it’s a frustrating process trying to find the “perfect” place. I’ll keep you updated…..I just hope the condo sells in time for us to get another place for the homebirth. K and I really want to start working on the nursery….but we can’t until we know where we’re going to be living! That’s pretty much it for now. The butterfly wings are sporadic, but hopefully will start occurring more and more!