I’ve wanted to post for several days, but haven’t felt like I’ve had the energy…do you ever have that? Today was another 102 degree day in Richmond and yet another 14 hour day. I’m exhausted. Even my toes hurt. I’ve told you all this before, and I fear it’s getting old. I’m sorry. I don’t mean to be complain-y. What I really want is to write a beautiful post about what an amazing experience our Homebirth Circle was last week. I could talk about it for ages. We met so many amazing women who told their empowering birth stories to the whole circle. I walked away excited about birth; I walked away thinking “I want this and can actually DO this!” I can really see it in my head now, and am getting more and more psyched. The meetings are once a month, and you never know how many people will show up. There were at least 30 at the last meeting. Couples with itty bitty babies. Singles-By-Choice that were very very pregnant. Women. Lots of women!! The supportive environment we walked into was like a cocoon of welcoming! Us being a same-sex couple didn’t seem to phase anyone, and every person there was so honest and open and willing to give advice on everything from labor to cloth diapers to circumcision. It really felt right being there. I’m sure I will write more about the meetings as the months go by!
As for news on the Wee One/Me:
> Our ittybitty baby has been asking me for virgin pina coladas……and I have obliged. Several times. I, I mean, THE BABY…yes…..baby…..can’t get enough of them.
> I really haven’t had many cravings….which has surprised me. Basically just pina coladas and Thai food – peanut noodles. Strange. Also I’ve been unbelievably thirsty at night.
> I thought morning sickness was a thing of the past. Not so. Picture me throwing up repeatedly in several rooms, several bathrooms…….this morning. Peaches DO NOT feel or taste good on the way back up.
> Our 16 week midwife appointment is Monday and I am so excited to hear the baby again!!!! These 4ww’s between each appointment are tough to get through!!!!
> The full body pillow has now entered our bed. It’s weird cuddling with a large, human-sized pillow, but oddly nice! I love love love sleeping on my stomach, but just can’t do it anymore. It’s uncomfortable and I worry that I’m crushing the Wee One. I lay on my stomach with one leg up on it. Having my knee up high takes a bit of the pressure off of my back, and it still feels a little like sleeping on my stomach.
> I haven’t weighed myself in over a week. I’m scared to get on the scale. My stomach feels so huge and I have this huge nightmare that I’ll be 10 lbs heavier. Please tell me that this won’t happen!
> We’re having our countdown till THE BIG ultrasound. The gender one!!!! We’ll be having it anywhere from 18-20 weeks. We’re finding out the sex, and I’m pretty excited about it. I feel like it’s a girl (probably because I’d really really love to have a girl!) but what do I know! I have decided that it’s only right to tell all of you dears. Do you feel special? Yes? Awh. You are. It will be pretty cool to see the baby actually LOOKING like a baby, as we’ve only had one ultrasound at 7 1/2 weeks, and the wee one looked like a lima bean.
> Big big exciting news. We’ve made our final decision on girl and boy names. Of course you’re special, but not that special! Just kidding. No, really. I’ve got to give you guys SOMETHING to look forward to. It’s going to be a mystery!!! My lips are sealed until our wee one is here though. But I am so relieved that the decision is MADE. Not only that, but I love love love the names. I get that warm fuzzy feeling just thinking about them. K and I had gone over and over names we liked, and why we liked them, as I’m sure all couples do. We chose names that had deep meaning for us as a couple, which makes this even more special. I couldn’t even talk to her about it for awhile without crying. We will have such stories to tell our child. Just as this baby was created from our love, so are the names we have chosen.
> Our baby is the length of a teaspoon now. How crazy is that?? Pretty crazy. Considering it seemed like not too long ago he/she was the size of a grain of rice!!!
I can’t think of a clever way to end this post…. so I’ll just say goodnight 🙂 I’m really looking forward to hitting the pillow tonight. I’m wishing you all I lovely evening, wherever you are. xo