I’m really sleepy. It’s 11:30pm. I don’t know WHY I’m not in bed asleep. I’ve been fiddling with the computer for the last few hours. No need to, really. I was spending most of that time on youtube, checking out some music videos. Karli is in bed asleep with 2 of our beagles – Olivia & Bentley. Jarratt (our oldest pup) is asleep on my feet. I don’t know WHY I stay up when I feel physically exhausted. My body was telling me to hit the sack at 8:30 tonight. I always do this to myself – it’s a terrible habit I’ve gotten into. I think it’s easier knowing that I can sleep in tomorrow morning. Karli worked yesterday from 2:30am (yikes!) to 6:30pm and today was a 9 hour day…….I’m so happy it’s the weekend. I am craving sleep….yet here I am. I really cannot wait to hit the pillow…. SO, I’ll be brief!
Yesterday officially told me that I did not ovulate….the start of a NEW cycle…..well, at least it wasn’t 48 days this time! But, it’s a little disappointing. 2 months, no ovulation. But, I see the doctor in a month, so I’m not stressing – yet. I actually feel alright. I know it will happen when it is meant to happen. SO, if we’re not meant to get pregnant in December, that’s okay. If it takes a few months, or a year – I’m okay with that. When we do start TTC in December, I am going to try to stay as calm as possible and completely prepare myself that this process may take longer than I originally thought.
I’m off to bed…….. I leave you with Mat Kearney’s latest song, “Breathe In, Breathe Out”. I saw this guy play in Norfolk, Va. He’s amazing. Check out his cd, “Nothing Left To Lose”….it’s AWESOME.