Hold On January 28, 2008

 

I’m listening to KT Tunstall.  Man, this girl is so good.  Her new stuff, her old stuff – it’s all golden.  What would I do without my beloved music? I’d hate a life without it. I currently have a plastic mouth guard in my mouth.  Ok, that wasn’t the best way to switch topics.  But, I do.  So, there you go. The whitening gel leaves this odd filmy, chemically residue that makes me choke.  But, hopefully I’ll wind up with white teeth and all that nonsense will be no big deal! Ah, the silly things we do.  Not that my teeth are yellow, I just want them whiter.  Maybe I shouldn’t mess with nature – who knows.

Today is CD17.  Typically, I’m due to ovulate CD18.  Tomorrow.  I don’t think that’s going to happen.  Not tomorrow anyway.  And maybe not even this month.  We haven’t done an insemination yet… I’ve had the EWCM, but no positive OPK.  The last 2 days I have had temps in the 98-point-something range.  That’s normally post-ovulation temperatures for me.  Yesterday morning I had a darker test line, but still not as dark as the control line.  And now I’m peeing on sticks and not having a test line come up.  Yeah, that is really depressing.  Was my body gearing up to ovulate and changed its mind?  Or did I somehow miss the surge?? Are we out this month? That would suck.  K told me today that it would be okay.  Somehow, that was strangely reassuring.  Just her saying that.  She said that we have some important distractions right now.  This is true…

We’ve been house-hunting for a long time, looking for something small and perfect for us in the city.  Well, I think we found it, and I almost don’t want to write about it, lest I jinx it or something.  I’m not an overly emotional gal, and certainly not weepy.  I’ve cried about this house 4 times, 3 times (K says) was in Target!! Ahhh! I’m losing it.  Seriously though, have you ever had it where you just find a place where you can see yourself there.  I see us.  I see the nursery. I see our future.  It’s a small gray house, 934 sq. ft., built in 1941.  All the charm of an old house, but completely renovated.  Beautiful hard wood floors.  Archway in the den, and bathroom. New windows.  New roof.  New electric and plumbing, heating and cooling systems.  New vinyl siding.  It has a HUGE back yard for the beagles, and coming from living in a condo, that is like heaven for a puppy dog.  The house has a fireplace in the den. We’re in love.  Both of K’s parents have seen it too, and really like it.  It was important to both of us to have them sort of “approve” of our decision. We are most likely going to make an offer tomorrow.   Here is a picture of it, before the black shutters were put on it.  It sort of looks blue and rather small in the pic, but it is gray, and actually really roomy inside! We can just imagine the fun we’d have with landscaping, etc with it!! It’s very exciting! More pictures to come I’m sure!

Now, just holding on to hope that things will fall into place as they should.  I hope that we’re not out this month.  I hope that soon, my love and I will have new place to call home, and in time, our very own wee one to fill our new house and hearts with love.  Corny, maybe. But how awesome would all that be, eh?

Hold on
To what you
Been given lately
Hold on
To what you
Know you got
Hold on
To what you
Been given lately
Hold on
Cause the world will turn if you’re ready or not

Waiting For + January 28, 2008

K and I saw “For The Bible Tells Me So” today with a bunch of friends.  Wow.  Everyone should see this film.  It, no doubt, had a huge impact on those in the theatre, including myself.

 

On the TTC front, I’ve got the EWCM and tomorrow is CD17.  I’m hoping for a positive OPK tomorrow so we can do an insem tomorrow night!  I usually ovulate CD18 or CD20, so the BFP on the OPK should be coming soon.  Let’s get this show on the road already!!!

Heath January 22, 2008

So sad after hearing the tragic news – my favorite actor – Australian Heath Ledger – dead at 28.

The movie world will miss him – as will the people, like myself, who were impacted by his films.

The Sydney Morning Herald Article

Tagged! January 20, 2008

I was tagged by J at love + love = marriage :

The Rules:

1) Link to the person that tagged you.
2) Post the rules on your blog.
3) Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself.
4) Tag at least three people at the end of your post and link to their blogs.
5) Let each person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.
6) Let the fun begin!

The 6 Non-Important things/habits/quirks about me:

1) I once went 11 days without a single bite of food – call it a fast for clarity of the mind.

2) My biggest pet peeve is guys who don’t keep their fingernails trimmed.

3) I have this other “personality” named Itty (K being Bitty) that only comes out at certain times. Itty has her own voice and mannerisms, and is addicted to hugs. I promise I’m not schizophrenic. Really.

4) I was a crazy cat child. I lived on a farm, and at one point we had 29 cats (outdoor barn cats). When I was 9 – I named 2 kittens out of a litter – Yentl & Anshel (after the Barbra Streisand movie Yentl). Like I said, crazy cat child!

5) I have 2361 songs in my iTunes library. It would take me 6.5 days of non-stop playing to hear them all.

6) I’m allergic to bottled alcoholic drinks like Smirnoff Ice, Bacardi flavoured beers, Mikes Hard Lemonade, etc., but love the taste of them.

I’m tagging:

Reproducing Genius

The Journey To A Baby Franklin

Vee And Jay

Beagles In The Snow January 17, 2008

It really never snows much in Virginia. When it does, even a few flakes seem to shut the state down. But, this is coming from a Canadian whose winter memories are of kids in snowsuits launching snowballs at their friends, sledding down icy hills, snow plows on the roads in the wee hours of the morning, and neighbours shoveling their driveways before work.

Today, it snowed. I mean, it really snowed. Ok, it was a light morning snow. BUT, it snowed. It lasted awhile too. And it stuck long enough (maybe 2 hours) for me to take a few pictures!! Woo! I was able to do the “i love you” above!! I was loving the cold snow today, and it reminded me of home.

Olivia, very excited about the snow (sorry for our high-pitched voices and a glimpse of K’s underwear!):

Jarratt, peeing. She has her eyes CLOSED, so as not to allow …. ah hem…. snowflakes, to hit, her eyes:

K’s snow-covered FJ Cruiser:

And, finally, non-snow related: I have sort of been doing a Grey’s Anatomy marathon the last few days. I need to get caught up on the new season! This is a song I heard in the show by a guy named JOE PURDY. I was able to find a video someone put together on youtube. Great song. Check it out:

Ask Away! January 15, 2008

Thanks for all the congrats girls!!! You all were so sweet!

Stole this from Lynn:

Because we never really know each other as well as we think, in response to this post I’d like you to ask a question. Anything about which you are curious, anything you feel you ought to know about me. Silly, serious, personal, fannish. Ask away. Then copy this to your own journal, and see what people don’t know about you.

This should be interesting!!!!

I Got Some Sparkly January 13, 2008

The perfect way to be cheered up after several BFN’s and the arrival of AF?

BE PROPOSED TO!!!

Karli and I don’t wear rings. We always knew we were going to get married, but just didn’t know when. WELL…she took me to the local lake tonight and pulled out this 20 Questions game. You think of an object, and it guesses it in 20 questions. SO, she said, I’m thinking of something, let’s see if this thing can guess it. Is it hard? No. Is it flexible? Yes. Does it come in a box? No. Is manufactured? No. Is it colourful? Yes. Well, after all the questions – guess what it was? A ROSE! K pulled it out and said, “look inside the petals.” I pulled out a gorgeous diamond ring, and K asked me to marry her! It is BEAUTIFUL!!! She truly picked out a beauty.

Ahh, we’re engaged!! I love the ring, and love what it represents even more!! K and I will have a small ceremony with family and friends I’m sure. We just have to pick a date now!!

If you read this K (Ok, I know you will!) here is the absolute, cheese-tastic truth: I love you and can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you. You make me laugh – and you make me so happy. No matter what difficulties we face together, we will get through them. You are my best friend and my true love, and no matter what we face ahead – good and bad times, times when we say things we don’t mean, lose our tempers and throw large pillows at each other (ha!): I will be here for you, loving you that much more – every day. Not everyone will be happy for us, but as long as we are, that is all that matters! I love you to the moon and back. XOXO.

For all you girls who will appreciate this beauty like I do! . . . . . . .

Ouch January 12, 2008

Today was 12 DPO.  The day that I was ideally supposed to wait to test.  Alas, I was not given the opportunity!  AF arrived with a vengeance this morning: backache, bloating and all the other crap that goes along with it.  K and I were going to go out tonight to celebrate (if we got a BFP), so not sure what we’ll do now.  But, I have a lovely bottle of Appletini mix that is sitting chilled in the fridge with my name on it!  Thanks girls, for all the support and encouragement here.  It means A LOT!!!

I’m disappointed, yes.  But I am not crushed or defeated by this.  I am hopeful for the next cycle, Midol-ed up, and ready to face the weekend.

Disappointment January 11, 2008

11DPO.  BFN this morning.  Huge temp drop.  AF should be here today or tomorrow.  I can’t help but be just a little disappointed.  I really let myself believe that it just may have worked.  This is hard, but we will get through it and move on to the next try.

Good luck to those still in the TWW.  I am hoping for a late September baby for you!!!

Longer Post January 10, 2008

10 DPO. CD30.  Temp dip today. BFN this morning. And, I will test again tomorrow! Just checked Fertility Friend for possible implantation signs. Instead of seeing “None….” It said: Possibly Triphasic on Day 27. I clicked on “. . .MORE” to get some more info:

What is a triphasic chart pattern? Does it mean I am pregnant if I have a triphasic chart pattern? Do I have to have a triphasic chart to be pregnant?

A triphasic chart shows three levels of temperatures: pre-ovulation, post-ovulation, and then a second rise around 7-10 days after ovulation. Some women with charts that show this pattern turn out to be pregnant. But many do not. Likewise, your chart does not need to show this kind of pattern for you to be pregnant. Whether or not you are pregnant, progesterone, the hormone responsible for raising your temperature after ovulation, generally peaks in the middle of your luteal phase and this can cause this kind of pattern whether or not you are pregnant.A triphasic chart can be promising, however, because progesterone levels generally increase after implantation (7-10 days past ovulation) in conception cycles, and sometimes this results in a triphasic pattern. If your chart shows a second significant thermal shift that begins 7-10 days past ovulation, Fertility Friend will indicate a triphasic pattern in the Pregnancy Monitor. A triphasic chart, however, is not a definite sign that you are or are not pregnant. It is just increasing your probability if you also have well-timed intercourse. Likewise, you can be pregnant and not have a triphasic pattern. Like all signs of possible implantation or pregnancy, you can really only speculate about it once a pregnancy has already been confirmed.

Hmmm… interesting, no? Part of me thinks this is looking good, part of me thinks, maybe my temps are just on the way down. Here is my chart overlay with last months. Almost identical! I put the tampons in the purse….JUST IN CASE! I have no idea what to expect here.

Just for kicks:

If you conceived this cycle your due date would be: 09/22/2008. That is my mother-in-laws birthday!! Funny. Most babies aren’t born on their due date though, so no worries. Even if a wee one WAS born that day, it wouldn’t matter.

I guess now, we just wait and see if my temperature nose-dives tomorrow morning. Hope you are all having a great day so far!